Reflections

2020 Reflections 2
1/1/2021

Nothing, and I mean nothing
No words,
songs,
art,
TV,
movie
Will ever convey life in 2020.

Life?
That implies living.

No.
It was existence,
survival,
barely making it through,
watching others not survive,
not make it through.

Those that didn’t die
didn’t quite live.

Numbness
Melancholy
Anger
Depression
Regret
Anxiety
Loneliness
Restlessness
Creativity
Desperation
Jealousy
Insecurity

The new norm.

Daily battles of self-doubt
Constant fear
of
Well, everything

Sickness
Job loss
Eviction
No toilet paper
No food
Not seeing loved ones
Not holding their hand
or kissing their forward

As they died.

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